May 26, 2023Liked by Rachel Kramer Bussel, Caren Gussoff Sumption
Thank you so much for writing this. I do the same. Perhaps on a far more frequent basis, and have done since I can remember. And I've attempted it, too; I thought 5 times, but recently discovered the time in my early twenties when I decided to starve myself as a punishment for letting the love of my life leave me (everyone assumed Anorexia) that this is also considered a slow kind of suicide. My reasons are of a feeling of uselessness; of invisibility and of unimportance in general. Now I've reached 60, those feelings are substantially more, added to chronic-daily-pain. I, too, am autistic; something I only learned about last year but have known my whole life in my soul.
Debs, thank you for sharing your struggles. I hope it helps you to know you aren't alone -- we are autistic, chronic pain (I have ankylosing spondylitis) sisters. I see you and you matter. Much, much love to you.
Could it be that you keep standing up, keep on going, keep doing your job because you have the Spirit of God inside you guiding you each and every day? Because you know that taking your own life is a sin against God? I truly pray 🙏 that it is, and that you know Him and believe in Him and trust that He is your savior, always has your back, and will always love you -no matter what. You will be free of these thoughts one day and I hope that you keep on using your Spiritual gifts to stop others from taking their own lives. I’m praying for you, don’t forget that either.
Thank you so much for writing this. I do the same. Perhaps on a far more frequent basis, and have done since I can remember. And I've attempted it, too; I thought 5 times, but recently discovered the time in my early twenties when I decided to starve myself as a punishment for letting the love of my life leave me (everyone assumed Anorexia) that this is also considered a slow kind of suicide. My reasons are of a feeling of uselessness; of invisibility and of unimportance in general. Now I've reached 60, those feelings are substantially more, added to chronic-daily-pain. I, too, am autistic; something I only learned about last year but have known my whole life in my soul.
Debs, thank you for sharing your struggles. I hope it helps you to know you aren't alone -- we are autistic, chronic pain (I have ankylosing spondylitis) sisters. I see you and you matter. Much, much love to you.
Thank you for writing this. It's beautiful and important.
Thank you for reading, Meg! 🌹
Could it be that you keep standing up, keep on going, keep doing your job because you have the Spirit of God inside you guiding you each and every day? Because you know that taking your own life is a sin against God? I truly pray 🙏 that it is, and that you know Him and believe in Him and trust that He is your savior, always has your back, and will always love you -no matter what. You will be free of these thoughts one day and I hope that you keep on using your Spiritual gifts to stop others from taking their own lives. I’m praying for you, don’t forget that either.